Making Memories

Relationships freindships?
I use to dream so much about having a wife and relationship, and I never had the chance to have one. And now that I am older, I feel I've passed the stage where relationships really matter where you make memories and feelings, and I feel real black in my mind, what should I do. I really don't have a good emotional backround and a don't mess with a lot of people socially because I don't trust them. I really want a girlfreind, but I hear so much different advice, I really dont know how to start. Many people say they are all the same, I see so many people breaking up, being happy for a moment, and acting like their happy adn when they break up they just get up with another person. Some girls act so many different ways, and I just dont know how to go about making a decision. I don't have to many people in my life, and I really want to start having people in my life, but I want to make sure their the right ones. I never was taught anything about relationships and when I came out of homeschool, I let freinds choose me, and I never understood what I was doing wrong. But I finnaly learned to stand for myself, and stand in life on my own, and I realized alot of those people really brought me down for no reason. But now I'm staning, but I feel its hard to stand alone, and how should I go about bringing people in my life. I really believe in working hard and moving foward and being positive. And I when I see that people have potential to affect me negatively I don't talk to them. But I dont want them to feel bad or think there is anything wrong with them, I just want to move foward. I dont like attching my mind to people, but Im thinking the fact that I dont have alot of people in my life is because I practice this, maybe I need to be more nice. But I just want to know how should I go about finding people. I'm already really much behind and dameged mentally, I dont have alot of memories with people, and I want to start making some, but I dont want to rub my negativety and past on them. With female freinds, it is hard for me to have them because, I never had a long relationship and I am single now, so when they are close to me, I am always having ideas, or thoughts, and I don't want no one to be uncomfortable aroudn me. I also don't have much to fall back on, so the people who are in my life will really have a big impact on my life as a whole. Anybody who has a lot of good relationships no any how I can start? Yeah, and also I feel Im loosing the respect and morals I once had for females. Right now part of me just wants to go out and have sex... after all these years Ive thought Ive waited, but I think I never was realistc. I really know nothing about relationships. I would appreciate any advice

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Is it bad/unusual for a teenager to be worrying about these things?
I still have half of high school to go, yet I'm worrying about my future a ton. The thing is that I'm not worrying about if I get the best job out there or if I get the biggest house, but if I find my one true love or not. I don't want to do it all yet, but I do want to find someone who I can truly fall in love with right now that would be with me forever. I am always looking out for romance in my life, but can't find anyone to give my heart to, ever since the one I always loved is now gone. The person I always thought of as my future wife is gone but I have never found anyone who ever came close to matching her at all, which is terrifying me, because I long for a future shared with someone and maybe having a child or two. I can't stop thinking of how amazing it will be when I'm older and have a loving wife and we both are sitting by the Christmas tree, watching our child making memories. But I shouldn't think of things like that this young, should I?!

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How do you say " Let's make memories" in Japanese?
Please don't use online translation, answer if you actually speak/ know japanese. Thank you all :3

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